C is for Creating Your Own Reality
C is also for Confession... Which this sort of is...
Last week, I was sick.
I was also tired, angry, overwhelmed, and grieving.
So what did I do?
I took it out on my husband.
Oh, and then I balmed HIM like this was all HIS fault!
Shocking, right? YOU would never do this, right? Yeah, right... So I guess although many of you come to me for relationship advice, I still have a while before PBS will be calling me to join relationship gurus like Wayne Dyer on one of their fundraising specials...
But here is what I learned through this experince, and what I wish to share with you. Within about 14 hours; I realized that I had created this reality, not my husband. It did not take me 14 days, or weeks, or months, or years (like it used to.) I realized that I was "giving my husband grief" over grief that was actually my own.
Within 14 hours, I was also able to apologize. I was able to express some things that I found I was actually feeling scared about; and not angry about at all, even though I was acting like an angry person. Within 14 hours, I was able to lean on him for support instead of pushing him away and trying to deal with things on my own (which is VERY old and VERY familiar habit of mine.) Within 14 hours, I started to feel a little better.
What realities are you creating for yourself? Which of these realities are you creating over and over again, even though they may be worn and outdated? Even though they may have nothing to do with the present moment, person, or situation? What are you still blaming others for, when maybe the answers lie in taking a closer look at yourself?
It's hard for me sometimes. Maybe it's hard sometimes for you, too. If you find you need a hand to hold, you can hold mine. I may not have all of the answers, but at least we can muddle through it together.
Be Well,
Rev. Sherry